The Volturi

6 June 1789

I have not write in you for a few decades now. Last I wrote was about Aurore and Alfonso. They, of course, were shocked to see my gold-colored eyes. I explained to them that I only drink animal blood and they were confused. Eventually they decided to try on my diet as well, but their animal blood diet didn't last long. They stopped the diet after three months of trying it. Then, I left their coven. I left the University of Paris a few years later as people are starting to notice that I am not aging.

I've traveled through Spain, Switzerland, Austria and more places in these few years, learning and practicing medicine. Most people know me as Dr. Cullen nowadays. I keep moving from places to places after a few years. But still, I feel quite alone.

I've got myself enrolled into one of the famous university in Pisa, Tuscany, Italy. It's the University of Pisa. It teaches Medicine, Civil Law, Canon Law and Theology. I of course take Medicine as my major subject and Civil Law and Theology as the optional ones. But that is not the main reason I'm writing in you today.

I was walking to the university at night like I always do because all my classes are night class and I hide in the day to avoid myself being caught. People around have start to think of vampires, witches and such as fairytales nowadays, so I'm quite safe to interact with them. I was very near the university when I was attacked.

His name is Felix. He attacked me and managed to take me back to Volterra and meet his masters, the leader of his coven. He dragged me down into a sewer-like tunnel and took me forward.

There they were, the three leaders of this coven of vampires in Volterra. I can see that all of them, all the vampires present wear a dark cloak over their body, hiding their faces from me. All, but one put their hood on. He sat in the middle of the three thrones before me; the other two was occupied by a vampire with snowy white hair and the other jet-black.

The vampire who sat in the middle stood up and walked towards Felix and me. With a smile on his papery-onion-like face –well more like as thin as an onion’s surface’s skin-like face-, he said, "Welcome, dear young one. Welcome to our little coven called Volturi."

Suddenly, Felix let go of his grip on my hand and walk towards the vampire who stood up just now. "Master..." he said. Then, he touched his papery onion-like hand and that vampire gasps.

Smiling again, he said, "I see Felix, you may return to your place. So, you must be Carlisle, am I right?"

"Yes, how did you know my name? Who are you?"

"Felix just told me your name and your encounter with him."

I felt my jaw dropped and quickly close it before anyone notices. As I opened my mouth to speak, I silenced myself because Aro was speaking again.

"Don't fret young one. I have a gift; I am able to read every single thought that you ever have when I touch you. Would you do me the honor?"

Slowly, he reached out his hand towards me, an invitation. Not knowing what to do, I slowly reach out my hand to touch his waiting hand. He gasped as he touched my icy cold hand -which felt quite warm to another vampire, as Aurore had commented in one of the time I'd stayed with her and Alfonso-. With pure shock in his ruby red eyes -apparently he just fed on a human's blood-, he let my hand go and he seemed like he took a few steps backwards.

“I see. Young Carlisle, you’ve never heard of us? I see. And you feed only off animal blood, am I right?”

The snow white haired vampire looked very shock, and so did the others, well, all except one that is, he sat on one the throne in the room, his hair was jet black but there was no expression on his face.

Feeling dumbstruck, I had myself focused on how to reply to his answer, but before I even open my mouth to speak, he already nodded understandingly as if he heard me thinking inside my head, all the time keep our hands holding in a hand shake position.

“I see Carlisle, I heard it in your head, as I had said before, I can hear every thought that you ever had just by one touch. Extraordinary! How remarkable it is. A creature like us but feed off animal blood instead. Would you ever consider joining us, young one?”

I was thinking again, on the pros and cons of joining them. What if I want to leave one day? What if I was to kill an innocent life during my time here? What if I leave now, not joining them, consider that I may learn something here. There are just too many what ifs.

“Aro, I know that you may had read what I was thinking already, but I need sometime to think about it.”

Aro spoke again this time, but with his voice so musical that he’d managed to make it sound like he was pleading for me to join his coven of vampires. “Ah, why of course young one. You can take your time and please do consider joining us.”

“Fine then, Aro. May I proceed into going out of here and to my class now? I am quite sure my professor is worried that his student is absent.”

“Of course then. Get on your way. If there is anything you need at all, feel free to come and see us. And don’t forget my offer young Carlisle.”

I back away slowly, then walk out of the double door and proceed to get to my class. Of course I was late, but the professor took no notice of that.

I’ll tell you my decision when my mind is cleared of confusion.

Till then,

-Carlisle

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The University

25 January 1664

As I walk into the streets of Paris, I let myself walk slowly. I do not think that the humans can run as fast as me strolling along the woods.

The humans seemed... CURIOUS... Yes, curious about me -I think-, but then again, I can see every single pulse, every single heartbeat, luring me, letting me to feel the urge, THE NATURE OF A VAMPIRE, the nature that makes me wanting to sink my razor sharp teeth into their throats, and let the warm, juicy liquid flows in and extinguish the burning flame in my throat.

The streets of Paris are full of posters, but the one poster that caught my eyes was the one about the University of Paris (Universite de Paris a la Sorbonne). It was established 300 years ago by a gentleman with the name Sorbonne, and the best of all, it is only 2 blocks away.

I had myself wrapped up in a scarf that covers my skin so they will not glitter like diamonds. Since it is still snowing, most people are putting scarves around their necks too. I also changed my clothes because the ones I was wearing were stained with animal blood.

I walk my way to the university since it was so close. Reaching there, I find my way to the office to get myself enrolled into the university. If the humans did not recognised me when I make my way here, perhaps they will not notice me studying in the university too.
I was a little shocked when I walk up to the registration table. There was the receptionist, it was not the receptionist that shocked me, but her name, AURORE. Could this be the Aurore Pierre and his friends were talking about 2 weeks ago? I do not want to let my curiosity gets the best of me, but I walk forward anyway, wanting to ask her about the university enrollment, after all she is the receptionist.

As I was approaching her, I can smell a sweet scent, it did not have the same sweet scent of human blood that were pumping near me but somewhat it smelt like the fragrance of lavender. Then I realized why is it -THERE IS ANOTHER VAMPIRE HERE. I walked towards Aurore step by step, little by little, and the scent just keep getting stronger. Did the scent I inhaled belonged to Aurore? I do not know.

It seemed to be an eternity when I finally reached the table.

"Excusez-moi, je me demande si je peux m'inscrire à l'université?" (Excuse me, I am wondering if I can enroll into the University?) I asked.

Instead of smiling like other receptionist do when they reply to a person that asked them a question, angrily with her high-pitched musical voice, she said, "Qui êtes-vous? Et que fais-tu ici?" (Who are you? And what are you doing here?).

I quickly realized that the scent really do belonged to her, and she IS a vampire.

"Je vois que vous, mademoiselle Aurore, est la réceptionniste de l'école. Je ne veux de mal, je ne veux m'inscrire à l'université et apprendre des choses ici." (I can see that you, miss Aurore, is the receptionist of the school. I mean no harm, I only want to enroll into the university and learn things here.)

I can feel another set of eyes on me, so I turn around and saw a male staring at me. The male was wearing a suit that only janitors wear. Could he be a vampire too?

"Puis-je vous faire confiance, les jeunes d'un?" (Can I trust you, young one?)

"Bien sûr. Puis-je savoir quel sujet est disponible ici?" (Of course. May I know what subject is available here?)

With shock in her already dark eyes, she said, "Beaux-là. Il existe un petit nombre de sujets disponibles ici, y compris la médecine, des arts et des lois." (Fine then. There are a few subjects available here, this includes Medicine, Arts and Laws.)

I considered the options I have at hand. Then I finally decided.

"Je voudrais prendre un médicament que mon sujet principal, vous pouvez aussi bien ajouter à trop de lois." (I would like to take Medicine as my major subject, you might as well add in Laws too.)

"Je vais vous inscrire pour vous dans quelques minutes." (I will register that for you in a few minutes.)

I waited for a few moments when she finally speak again.

"Là vous allez, voici votre calendrier. Assurez-vous que vous n'avez pas m'exposer, ou je vous tuerai moi-même!" (There you go, here is your timetable. Make sure you do not expose me or I will kill you myself!)

"Ne vous inquiétez pas, je tiendrai ma promesse." (Do not worry, I will keep my promise.)

I walk away thinking what did she meant by she will kill me myself, then I shuddered at the thought. I had tried to kill myself many times a few months ago, but still, listening to a threat that said she will kill me with what ever means she may use, frightens me. If I am still a human, my heart would be beating furiously.

I do not know why I chose Medicine as my major subject, maybe it is just because it seemed to attract my interest. The field of Medicine seemed somehow appealing to me. Maybe that is my call, my reason. Probably...

I also enter for Laws. I have a feeling that it might be useful one day, besides, I have nothing to do at night, I might as well learn them.

I better go and hunt. Being near so many human just make the scorching flame back again.

Till then.

-Carlisle

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France

10 January 1664

I was swimming non-stop for the past few days, I reached France a little early than expected. I had reached Cherbourg yesterday but there was a few human nearby, so I ran away from them. I need to hunt as soon as possible. It will be quite, NO, but VERY dangerous for a thirsty vampire to be roaming around the city or streets when there may be some unlucky human to bump into one.

I was running about 90 miles southeast yesterday. To my surprise, I am now in Paris. I am writing on top of the roof of a beautiful cottage here in Paris, gazing into the stars, watching them blinking their eyes at me. What a beautiful sight. I can hear the two couple in this cottage sleeping, how sweet it is as they are sleeping together, enjoying every moment of being human. There are also children in this house, I can hear their fluttering heartbeat. There are five of them in this cottage. The five human, unaware of a thirsty vampire writing in his journal on their cottage roof.

I can hear some Frenchmen talking about 5 miles away. I understand what they are talking about - probably because France was quite near to Britain-.

"Pierre, Pierre, tu as un coeur de pierre" a guy had said. (Pierre, Pierre, you are stone-hearted) "Comment as-tu pu quitter ta fiancé comme ça?"(How could you left your fiance just like that?)

The guy called Pierre replied, "Ah! Vous avez posé une question simple mon ami. J'ai trouvé une autre femme, et elle est beaucoup mieux que Aurore." (Ah! You've asked a simple question my friend. I found another woman, and she is a lot better than Aurore.)

I heard another guy said, "Dominique, mon ami fou, l'amour ne dure pas éternellement. Vous n'avez pas rencontré Susanne encore, alors vous verrez pourquoi Pierre a annulé ses fiançailles." (Dominique, my foolish friend, love does not last forever. You have not met Susanne yet, then you will see why Pierre cancelled his engagement.)

Dominique replied, "J'aimerais répondre aux Susanne qui avaient notre Pierre ici pour avoir le cœur de résilier son engagement avec les plus belle femme de Paris." (I would love to meet the Susanne that had our Pierre here to have the heart to cancel his engagement with Paris' most beautiful lady.)

Pierre said again, "Hah! Matthieu a raison, vous en connaissez la raison quand vous la verrez vous-même. Quoi qu'il en soit, comment a été votre demande à l'université?" (Hah! Matthieu is right, you will know the reason when you see her yourself. Anyway, how was your application to the university?)

I stopped listening to their conversation from the word "university". A university, a place where I can start with. I would love to learn more things, from different languages to philosophy, and business to pharmacy. I will go and find the university the men were talking about, and maybe get myself registered there -that is if they do not notice me as a vampire-.

I can hear a herd of deer somewhere north of me now, I will write again after my thirst is satisfied and after I asked the university's management for another student.

I better go now, someone is waking up in the cottage.

-Carlisle

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Planning

3 January 1664

Today is the third day of the year 1664, or so I think. I have traveled from Southampton to somewhere near Devon now. The last I wrote is on Christmas Eve, that was the last time I had hunted to this day. I need to hunt again before I set out to my plan.


Yes, MY PLAN. I have planned to go to France. I may learn something new about my kind there. I shall take off the first break of dawn from Plymouth and perhaps will reach somewhere near Brest or Cherbourg in a few days. I plan to swim there. Do not be surprised, people swim through the English Channel all the time in these days.


I was running through the snow in the past few hours, so there are some snow on my hair now as I am writing now. I will brush them off later. I stayed at Ringwood a little longer than I had expected.


My plan to swim there now is mostly for my own convenience. The cold weather is exactly what I needed. A normal, sane human will never ever swim for a few days during a winter spree, and there will be no land to stop at and allowing them to get warm, but I, I am not human. I was once, but not anymore. I will continue to live -if it is what I should call the way I am now- and find my call in the alternatives in this new life.


It will be dawn soon, I better hurry up and hunt down some red deer or some foxes.


I will write soon when I have reached the shore of France.

-Carlisle


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The Vampire Characteristics

24 December 1663

Today is Christmas Eve and I am all alone in the dark, empty streets of Southampton. I have been quite far from home, if I still be considered as one of the citizens now. I wonder how is my father now, what is he doing at this very moment, has he set up the Christmas Tree yet? He, my father, may never accept me back as his son again, because of his despise towards the creatures of evil, he will never take me back as his son.


I just hunted a mountain lion -they taste the best of all animals I had hunted before-, so I have my energy back, and since it seems that I do not need any sleep -at all- I had spent my time in the past few months picking up on my memories, but I cannot really remember anything about my human life except to read from the entries in this journal, the other journals -if I had written more- I had left them back home and I have not return yet. In my conditions, I do not know if I can ever go home, and my father is there. Ah, home, the sound of it makes me want to run back there this very instant.


Instead of filling my mind with sad thoughts of unable to go home, I researched more of my kind. There has nothing too much to find out except for the obvious changes that I had experienced, which I was oblivious to during my failed attempts of suicide, but they did gave me a more understanding of myself.


It seems that the most obvious change will be my appearance, my voice, probably even my smell -they smelled sweet now-. It also occurred to me that the painful days in June were probably caused by the physical changes.


My blond hair look somewhat the same -I think-, my skin -I do faintly remembered that they were pale- but this, this is very very pale, as pale as a ghost if I am right, they felt warm but I realize that when I touch my prey, they shuddered like they had touched something cold, so I am assuming that my skin are cold too. My reflection in the mirror shows that my bloody red eyes are changing day by day, every time I feed is more accurate though. My eyes are still red but currently, they have this little tinge of gold in them. As I had written above, my appearance had completely change into more beautiful, godlike creature.


When I was all alone in the woods of North Yorkshire, I made a discovery as I tried to expose myself under the sun and to my un-expectations, instead of being turned into ashes and disappear away like in the myths, my skin reacted as if millions of diamonds were embedded in them.

Other changes includes the incredible speed as I run, the strength I possessed -I knew about that when I accidentally crushed a boulder when I had jumped down the cliff in one of my suicidal attempts-, my sense of smell, sight, touch and so on, are also sharper than a human being's. I think that the senses too have been altered during the painful three days.

Then I realize this sickening fact, the changes of my appearances, my altered senses, they are changed for me to lure human, to feed on them easily, the strength-to crush their bones, not letting them escape; the speed-to catch up with them in case they try to run away; the intense sight-so I can see them clearly; the inhuman beauty-to lure them, to let them want to be near me, to be unable to resist me.

The temptation of human blood, yes, the temptation that smelled so strongly, so sweet that I WANT to lounge on their throat, but I cannot!! I MUST NOT DO SO!!!

Wait.

It is snowing, such a beautiful sight. I can see clearly the shape of the flakes that are falling down. Their shapes are the amazing gifts from heaven to the earth.

I will write soon, I want to enjoy the snow even though they does no longer melt on my skin. I will miss that, the feeling of being human.

-Carlisle

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Vegetarian Lifestyle

16 September 1663

I am quite certain for now that I am currently not by any means near to human population, so I was thinking of writing another entry.

I HAD DRANK BLOOD, a deer's blood to be exact, last night. I can see now that it is possible for me to exist without destroying any families or had to take away a human's life to satisfy my thirst, to make the pain that felt as if someone had put down a burning hot iron into my throat to go away.

Last night, I was trying to flee away from the approaching humans, I found a good place to hide myself. Though, I can feel my will failing me as I hide, but my senses on the other hand were getting stronger. Somewhere east of my hiding place, I can hear a herd of deer ran by. Instinctively, I got out of my hiding place and lounged for the largest in the herd and drained its blood.

The beating heart of the deer, was beating furiously and stopped suddenly when I was finished with it.

My energy came back to me, I can feel the control of my own will now. I have decided to research more about my kind-vampires.

I will write soon for I have found out some interesting things.

-Carlisle

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Failed Trials

6 July 1663

I have tried many ways again and again. I jumped off a cliff so high that it could have shatter a human's bone millions pieces. I have tried drowning myself in the ocean for a few days probably. And yet here I am, who failed my mission in destroying myself, writing in my journal.

I have not eaten or drank anything since that night I was changed. Perhaps I can starve myself to death. I will try and do my best to stay as far away as I can from human population.

I will write soon if I failed again.

-Carlisle

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Venom, Pain, Change

30 June 1663

It had been three excruciating days. I do not know how I managed it but I did. I do not remember anything clearly but I know that I am different from who I am before, the scorching pain in my throat confirms it.

From what memory I have left from that night, a male went out of the sewers when he heard us approaching. I was sure he shouted something in Latin to his friends. He must have been very thirsty - like I am now - I can faintly remember his twisted face fill with agony. He managed to injured me, Peter , Arthur and some of the men with us. Knowing my father's attitude of burning anything or anyone that is contaminated by evil or such, instinctively, I crawled away from the alley when the other men arrived and burn Peter , Arthur and the other men to ashes.

I had hid myself well in a cellar, and had buried myself with rotting potatoes. It was a miracle that I was able to keep silent and stayed undiscovered.

Still I am one of the evil creatures that my men and I had fought with our lives. I do not want myself to destroy families, people, even to take away a human life just to quench my own thirst.

I must find a way to destroy myself, I will not let myself to turn into the evil creature that I had fought against.

I will write again soon if I had failed my mission to destroy myself.

-Carlisle

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Pitchforks and Torches

26 June 1663

I have reported my discovery to the people of the city. The men had all gathered together to destroy what I think to be Vampires in the sewers. I need to hurry. I will be leading this 'raid' myself. A few friends of mine are waiting outside my house now. Peter and Arthur will help me in leading the 'raid'. The other men brought pitchfork and torches with them. We will head to the sewers where I had discovered them a few days ago.

I need to go now. Will write again soon, if I survive...

-Carlisle

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First Entry

21 June 1663

I am Carlisle Cullen, born in somewhere in the 1640's. I am the only son of an Anglican pastor. My father was an intolerant man, while my mother died giving birth to me..

As the Protestants came into power, my father was enthusiastic in his perecution of Roman Catholics and other religions. He also believed very strongly in the reality of evil. He had led hunts for witches, werewolves and vampires. They've burned a lot of people each week.

Now my father is retiring and he had handed me his position in order to continue his hunt for evil.

I need to go now, will write again later, I am suspecting some vampires are living in the very sewers of the city.

-Carlisle

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